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2 weeks ~

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Assignment, lab report, Assessment, presentation, visit, quiz, and examination are the things that need to be taken care off for this 2 upcoming week.Entah lah, i don’t know how people managed to get pass this sort of thing in just 2 weeks, 2weeks!!!

The closer it get to raya, it suppose to be fun and exciting, although this kind of situation had taken the fun from it.Final Destination just launch recently, and i haven’t even gotten the chance to watch it.Don’t do laro thingy in the fasting month some said to me, well as long as i went there and watch the movie i can’t see any laro thingy can happen.The ugly part is, some of those who rather stayed at home during the fasting month, spending their time sleeping and waiting for the time for break fast, isn’t that amusing?

Raya celebration should be fun and i guess, most of you guys have already made raya shopping spree, hehehehe..however, something bothering me though.With all the ruckus for these couple of months or might i said incident upon incident starting from the beginning of this year, made me felt a little bit uncomfortable.Well, these are the time when friends and relatives get together and like past years, just like everyone else, my life is also great.However due to someone’s doing, most of my relationship has become severely damaged.All of the rumors, gossips,blogs, manipulation, drama,incident made me felt this year won’t be the same as the last one.

I wish i never bump to that girl this year, although my heart desire said i WISH I NEVER BUMP with that THINGY ‘BENDA ALAH” in my life.She is one hell of manipulator, story teller,drama queen and low life, the greatest that i have met i my life.Before this, i never knew that such thing could exist in this land, hahaha shame on me.Shame on me because even i falled for those stupid drama queen tear’s trick.Not until her tembelang pecah did i know , she was the lowest being that you could ever met.

Once i promise myself i never get into problems involving this female creature that god created,especially with my friends.However this creature even managed to distort the relationship that i had with my best friend and due to the fact that he is also a relative of mine made the case even worst.Well, you certainly can avoid an outsider but how can you avoid seeing your own relative.I try to understand what kind of creature that this being is made of, and my closest assumption H1N1 there you have it…the most deadly virus constantly spreading in our world today, although in this kind of situation.It’s my world.

You can keep doing the turn off, breaking up, made up with my junior, my friend, and my relatives but you won;t get far as long as there’s somebody keep an eye on you, your mindless stupid message trick using your mum or your family won’t work.Come on , the same trick won’t work twice.Although, the incident where you ramp my cousin car could be seen as lunatic kind of behavior, regardless that you even give the RECEIPT to my cousin it doesn’t shut one’s eyes on the thing that you already done.Fabricating  stories to ask for sympathy from those around your victim is a foolish act, cause even your own family knows what kind of person you are..and they already warn us about your behaviour.The things you do to your own sister, your own boyfriend, even your closest cousin already reached my ears.

Am i making up this kind of stories? let’s check back, we go a way back to the time when you made a blog of your on on the myspace about how “you wouldn’t even steal your cousin boyfriend’ AUWWW ..come on get a grip.Should you write those kind of thing?or how about pet?you like pet don’t you and you should know better the sensitivity of the topic and yet, you still wrote those kind of things.What’s the mission?humiliating your own family?kinda funny right if you managed to do something like that, how can possible I, as an outsider will get a better treatment than that…

This blog is dragging on, and i think i must stop here before I become to enthusiastic in elaborating every single thing that you have done not to me, but to your own family.Using the ‘family trick’ to get to your goal is   lame.Getting close to your prey and getting along with those close to us, is an old fashion way of doing thing nowadays.Maybe right now you already indulged yourself in the comfortable world since i lay low don’t you?have any favorite’s drink at the nearest starbuck cafe?perhap that thing that you offer me at the TIME SQUARE last time remember?Disgusting~As if i would share a drink with you…you must be ot of your mind if you ask me.

Hope i never got the chance to bump into you in the near future.Cause if i would by any chance bump into you, trust me, you won’t like it.

P.S i wished the picture up above should be like this

Entah

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Entah kenapa orang yang kita sayang selalu pergi meninggalkan kita,Entah kenapa orang yang kita harapkan selalu hampakan kita,Entah kenapa orang berpura -pura mengatakan sayang dekat kita tetapi itu semua dusta semata -mata.Entah kenapa hati ini tidak berair mata lagi?Mungkin hati ini kering dan tidak bernyawa lagi?Adakah dikau yang merampas nyawa dari hati ini?

Mataku sakit, telingaku perit, otakku serabut,perutku mual, perasaanku jijik melihat kau bersama si dia,bersekongkol dengan si dia, menyokong si dia, menyebarkan yang salah dan membutakan yang benar.Bodohkah dikau?Butakah dikau?Pekakkah dikau?Tulikah dikau?Bebalkah dikau?Tidakkah dikau lihat?Tidakkah di kau nampak dengan mata hatimu bahawa hati ini ada untuk engkau?

TIDAK!! kau tidak nampak itu semua.Suara sumbang menjadi panduan dan penunjuk arahmu.Mereka yang hina itulah sahabatmu, dan mereka yang menyesatkan itulah karibmu.Kering~kering hati ini tidak bernyawa kerana di kau!!Perasaan mereka dikau agungkan, perasaan mereka dikau pentingkan,perasaan dia dikau sanjungkan,bagaimana dengan aku?bagaimana dengan engkau?

Rumit semua perkara dibawa oleh mereka,mereka yang merumitkan keadaan,mereka yang dijadikan panduan, mereka yang diagungkan,mereka,mereka,mereka bukan kita.Entah, entah, entah…entah berapa kali ku cuba membohong hati ini,entah berapa kali aku cuba untuk membaluti luka ini,entah berapa kali ku cuba menahan rekahan di hati yang sedang kering…dikau bahawa segalanya cuba menjahanamkan ia , di tikamnya di depan depan..Mengapa?

Apabila ku melihat musuh di depan mata, ku harap akan adanya dikau di belakang, tetapi di manakah dikau berada?kau berada di dalam kelompok musuhku , di depan aku, bersekongkol dengan mereka, membuat onar dan kacau,menyerabutkan jiwa, membunuh nyawa.

Engkau lah ratu, engkau lah puteri, engkau lah si pencuri hati,

engkau lah engkau, seluruh dunia, engkau lah engkau, pembunuh nyawa~

I try to hold on but it hurts too much

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Ironic isn’t it?The one you love always be the one that hurt you the most.The one that you care about always end up hurting your own feeling.In relationship either it can be between couples or among friends, the one that you care about is the one that make you suffer.People always said that, everything happen for a reason even we might not know what the reason really is.

Feeling is a very complicated things.We cant force ourselves to be happy or sad, we can only pretend that we do.The downside is the act of pretending has certain limit.People that hurt your feeling is different when the one you love acting the same way.The act is completely different and the impact is also different.

Once when a friend said, Love’s hurt.I don’t believe it at all.How come it could be hurtful when you’re with someone you love and adore?Telling me a bull are you?Seems like he was right anyway,and sometimes the pain is unbearable beyond i have even imagined.

I always good at fixing things.I always have.Back in the days, my friends often ask my opinion when they have difficulties and i every, almost every time i manage to solve the problem.Seems like i the ability has abandon me at last.I’m in a ruined and i really frightened me when i realise that i have to face it alone without no one.Loneliness,maybe that is the thing that everybody tried to avoid after they finally found someone.

I thought i could managed it like before, but maybe i was wronged all along.I could if i stay the same way like before not until i have met someone.Someone that make me realize that i also have a heart.The simple creation yet have many functions.I hope i can get through this trouble time with ease.That is all i have left, HOPE.